||[Feb. 4th, 2006|10:44 pm]
this is terrible. my cat is sick and we have to put her down, or something. all i know is that she will only get worse. i love her. she is the only thing in this world that i have loved for every moment of life. you know she is the perfect cat. she is pretty independant and good natured.whenever a stranger came to our house, she would hide for awhile but then come down and be friendly, just plop her self down on our guests lap. and she was well behaved, she never really did anything bad, when she got older we allowed her to do things(eat our food, walk on the table.hehe). well one thing about her, is that she doesn't like other animals and guards our home from other "preditors". in the middle of the night she would stare into her reflection in our giant windows and give off an alarming meow that woke us all up, she had good intentions. i mean, that's how much she cared. and what a hunter she was. we would often have her KILL left half eaten on the deck, just so she could impress us. but we didn't need her too, we already knew what a wonderful little kitty she was.
Tess has always been very small for a cat, but now in her sick state she is tiny, only 5 lbs(lost almost half of her body weight). i love her and there really isnt anything else i can do to help her. just stay with her and make her feel loved as she dies. i could never comprehend her dying, i could never imagine her not being here. dont say "its just a stupid cat", because shes not. she has as just much value as anyone else in my family.i dont know how we can ever replace her.
"New life makes loosing life easier to understand"- If I Could-Jack Johnson